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You’re the crown in my head, you’re the jewel around my neck, you are my pride.

You’re my sunshine in the rain, you’re my  light in the dark, you are my hope.

You’re my fortres in the storm, you’re  the reason for my being, You’re my strength

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Mourning

I have been through it. I have felt it. Felt it through the one who bore me, felt it through my  sister twins . It’s hard , gets harder as time pass by…. the rest of your life you keep questioning why it has to happen until you know the divine reason behind. You’ll get over it, you’ll slowly learn to let go but memoirs they die hard, they come slow. Time and again you’ll be haunted , time and again you’ll be made to remember but its up to you to remember which? May the Comforter comfort you with His peace.

How you Forget! 

The more you try, the more you remember. The less you try, the more you still remember. Just stop trying…… and finally let if go…. what hurts is seeing someone you love bearing you , being a burden to them , never knowing you r the burden. All through out you thought you were the one with the burden finally you are told right at your face that you are the burden. 

Love withstands all , that’s what I was taught , that’s what the Holy Book teaches. So conclusively , your not in love , you are in lust. So be happy to get rid of it. Just continue with your life. It will heal, time will heal. It’s not the end of the world. “Hearts are broken but it can be mended”,lines from “The Crown” might not be the same anymore but it’s up to you to make it stronger or weaker. 

I wish you could become a pain to me, yea ! you are indeed a pain in which I take pleasure from the wound that will never heal, the scare that will never fade.

Happy  were we, we were one.

The warmth we shared, within us it melt, Sunshine in the rain rainbow in the cloud.

But you’re touch , Oh! your touch drove my worries away.

You’re love, the extend I know-est  not, you’re care the depts I knowet not but thy words, oh thy words. The only sanctuary where built I a world within of the days to come, the days to pass. Knowing not, without a clue , my world will fall apart. As the flame , as the flame, as the flame. As the flame within me seems to fade , fade away like the morning due.

Happy  was I , I had thee.

The warmth I felt, within me it melt, cold was the night and gloomy was the day.

Lord I hope this day is good.

How are you to forget the living when you cannot forget the dead!

I woke up this morning just to realize that your gone , the song just rang in my head “Will he come back? No one knows” but I couldn’t continue with the song because it was just not a dream but a taunting reality. I got ready for office, wondering what I should wear but with every cloth that I picked his essence was there. We bought it together or there was always a story behind , even with the perfumes and scanted sprays that i used, even my tooth brush. So I thought how can I forget about him?, “US” that we used to be , we were, just a few days ago.

I haven’t been able to go home in my one room house where everything and everywhere is filled with the memories that we made. From stuffs in the kitchen to the bathroom. I wonder how I will deal with all these?

I tell myself I am strong , a Strong women. A strong women of faith was what I wanted to be but now I think “Faith in what?”

First blog post

This is the excerpt for your very first post.

Its 22nd of Feb 2017, 3 days and 3 night since that dreadful day. Dreadful for me yet one of my best friends wedding day. A union with his old time lover and mine a separation with my lover of 5 yrs. I couldn’t be sad nor could i smile on that day but for the sake of my friend, Moksha I had to look happy.

I have lots of friends but non with whom I share my deepest feelings. I usually write about it. Its been long since I haven’t written anything so I just thought I would start writing again.

I don’t wanna be pitied nor talked about so everything about me stays within me, but this time the pain’s too real  and someday I am gonna look back to all that had happened and all that i have went through , I will read my own blog and cherish the memories that i had made whether sad or blissful.